On January 8 of this year my life totally changed, it has gone from being a stay at home mom with 3 kids to spending hours every day at the hospital or nursing home, wherever my mom is that day. My mom is only 60 and had a massive stroke. The stroke was on the right side of her brain so she is paralyzed on her left side (which was her dominate side). She is currently at a nursing home. My father had brought her home to take care of her and I usually took my older 2 kids to school then went over there with my 2 year old and spent the day until time to pick my kids up from school. But after about 7 weeks she had an episode where she was scared to be alone and constantly crying, the next day she couldn't swallow so we had to take her to the hospital. We thought that she had another stroke but the doctors said no. She is now in the nursing home to get therapy, she can swallow again and is eating well. My problem is that she is different now, she is more child like and very, very scared to be alone. She cries over everything, she cries when I get there because she's glad I'm there, she REALLY cries when I have to leave (even is someone else is there), she cries if my dad goes home for a while to rest, she cries because she thinks my 2 year old might get hurt, and on and on.... I just don't know how to deal with it anymore. I'm also torn because I feel that if I didn't go up there my dad would never get to leave but I take my little girl with me just about every day and I'm feeling guilty that it's not fair to her, she should be playing outside and having fun. I'm really becoming a wreck over this, lately I've been crying at home before I go see her because I'm so tired and stressed and feel like I can't do this another day. I'm wondering if anyone else has had to deal with this type of emotional problem from a stroke and if anyone has any ideas on how to calm her fears. They are giving her a few different meds for anxiety and depression but nothing seems to be working. Also, her voice is very loud and monotone now and she doesn't seem to have any control over it, and she is upsetting the other residents with her crying and yelling for me or my dad and brother, she thinks if she keeps calling out our names that one of us will eventually hear her even though we are home for the night. Someone is usually with her from 8 in the morning until 10 or 11 at night. I just don't know what more we can do. And I don't think my dad is going to be able to bring her home this time, she is worse than before and my dad is just getting so tired. He's losing weight, he has 60 percent blockages in his heart, he doesn't take his medication like he is supposed to, and I worry all the time about him too. Well thanks for letting me share my story.