My dad is in the moderate stages of alzheimers. His denial is just beginning to melt a bit. His sense of loss is great. First, my mom from lung cancer a year ago next month. The loss of my eldest sister, Susan, a year ago, April 23rd. The loss of his driver's license - late 2011. His diagnosis and prognosis of this disease. The effects of the disease on my brother and I are varied. When I returned home from the state of Washington where I lived and had my support group, friends, church and employment to help with my sister's celebration of life and then to come home again to take care of mom during her short hospice and subsequent death - I had no idea I would not be returning home to Washington. Only when I observed my dad and his behavior did I realize that something was wrong. So here I am - a year later and everything has changed for me. My life - my love and comittment to Dad and his safety is of utmost importance. My ability to recognize my limitations are of more concern. We cannot do this alone and taking care of yourself (caretaker) first is very important. I am just learning this. Also, the financial aspect is of major concern as well. I cannot work outside of the house - am not married and am of the age (54) where my future earnings and ability to retain (gain) employment is thinning. So - emotional effects are great. I am tired much of the time, frustrated often, fearful for my dad alot and only my deep love for him keeps me focussed on one day at a time. That is all for now!!